ALPHABETICAL 2002


Aida at the Kennedy Center It was an excellent performance. My whole life, I knew there was an opera with the same name as my mom, but I never knew what it was about. And finally I saw it, and now I know.

Back to the future on DVD It fucking took Universal long enough, but now us BTTF geek-a-zoids can rest in peace.

Carpel Tunnel Its kicking in more and more and has started to affect my non-computer use as well, like sleeping and driving and writing. Almost everything I do hurts me.

Depot First time I went to that club was in 2002. I liked it so much I went almost every other week for months and months.

Elaina came to visit Finally, after knowing the girl since 1999, she came to my apartment to visit me. Even though that was a difficult week for us, I still felt relieved that she came over to where I live, seeing as how I have gone to see her three times.

Fantasies I have returned. I first danced there in 1998, in December. And I was fired in March 1999. And I hadnt set foot into that club since, until 2002...and now Im dancing there again.

Gold Club Another strip club. I first danced there in October 1999, and I quit in January 2000. And yet again, I am back working there also..

Heroin Not that Im coming off as some sort of know it all...but I know more about it than I wanted to. I know what it looks like, what it smells like, and I was there when he got it so many times. It made me nervous, I heard the code words on the phone, I sat around and waited for a car to come by with it. I never thought I would be in that situation, and I wish I hadnt.

Inital tattoo I got his initials tattooed, in a somewhat abstract way. I forewarned him that I was going to do it ya know.

Jerked around More appropriate would be to ask, who didnt fuck with me this year. From those I never actually met, to someone Ive been with for six years, to someone I met just this year, to someone I didnt talk to at all for 13 months. My heart was torn up in so many pieces.

Kenny the asshole He knocked up Shannon, came to me, professed his love over and over, stuffed his veins of that shit, and then destroyed me.

Lost my license Not only did I loose that card, but my license was suspended in VA, for paying a ticket late. Actually, I paid it the day it was due, but thats not good enough for Virginia.

Mike He left. Hes gone. I dont know forever, but Ive never gone this long with out talking to him ever since Ive known him. I would do almost anything to have him back, if only for an hour, just to hold him and tell him how much I miss him.

New Jersey I went there for a weekend with my mom, and my aunt and cousins. I havnt seen them in years, and Im sure I wont see them for many more years. My mom thought it was cute, seeing as how it was our first road trip, just the two of us.

Overweening I admit, I looked this word up in the dictionary. It means "thinking too much of ones self". Isnt that totally me?

Phone cut off Happened to me for the first time in 2002. And it happened so many times in 2002. Hey, when your broke as hell, the phone was the first bill to lapse in payments.

Questioning my existence I spent about a month, wondering if I was real. Wondering if I even existed. I didnt leave my apartment, I just laid in my bed all day, wondering who am I? Am I real? How do I know?

Ring The movie. I saw it in the theaters. A BIG deal for me, because I dont go to the movies. Last movie I saw in the theaters was Tomb Rader. Last one before that was Bevis and Butthead. Last one before that was Speed. Yeah, I hardly ever go.

Stabbing Westward broke up I will never get over that. The most important band in my life is gone forever. At least I have my story, and that cant be taken away from me.

Temp Jobs I went back to my employment agency, re-activated my account. I was placed on two jobs, they both lasted four days. I was let go from the first one due to too many people requested for the job...and I was flat out fired from the second one.

Uterus I had the shortest period of my life in August, and I didnt get it again until January 2003. Something is wrong with it, and I dont know what.

Vermont I spent a week there in January. That is not a state for me. Too...Vermont like, too small town, maple syrup, dirty hippie, granola eating kind of state.

Waterford My hometown. And I returned. Even though it was only for one day. I was home again, and some small part of me wishes I could raise a family there. It is a cute town.

Yoga I tried it for the first time. Id like to get into it more. It was realizing, it did feel good.

Zebra HaHaHa